No se que debo escribir por mi último blog de Peru. Claro tengo bastante Fotos a compartir, pero esos van a seguir cuando tengo tiempo libre. He estado muy ocupado con muchas cosas, y entonces voy a describir que ha pasado en las 2 semanas anterior.


He mandado mis aplicaciones para mis años de interno. Ya he recibido 3 invitaciones a entrevistar (Alaska, Tacoma, y duluth) y estoy muy emocionado a ver esos lugares. Yo solicite a programas de medicina de prevención y medicina familiar y también programas de medicinal familiar rural.


Pues, ese blog es difícil a escribir. Estoy distraido No se exactamente que voy a hacer ahora - ya cognosco que estoy regresando a un lugar donde hay muchas personas que yo amo, pero todavía yo siento un poco perdido, como he abandonado mi hogar. Es el único problema con personas buenas - siempre yo quiero su presencia en mi vida, y siempre es difícil a mantenerla.


Entonces, no tengo mucho más a decir sobre esto. Estoy hecho de menos, y siempre voy a recordar Ollanta, y mejor dicho las personas de Ollanta, como mi hogar.


Voy a dejar ustedes con la escritura de mi discurso final. Pues, mejor dicho es la escritura que yo debía haber escrito antes de mi discurso, pero por falta de tiempo yo solo hable de mi corazón. Acá tengo exactamente lo que quise decir en completo.

Por fin: aca tengo mis lecciones que he aprendido.  Recuerdas, lo mas recientes son mas abajo.

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I don't know what I write for my last blog of Peru. Sure I have enough photos to share, but those will follow when I have free time. I've been busy with many things, so I will describe what happened in the previous two weeks.


I sent my application to my residencies. I have received 3 invitations to interview (Alaska, Tacoma, and Duluth) and I'm excited to see those places. I applied to prevention programs in medicine and family medicine and also rural family medicine programs .


Well, this blog is hard to write. I am distracted. I don't know exactly what I will do now - I know I'm coming to a place where there are many people that I love, but I still feel a bit lost, like I left my home. This is the only problem with good people - I always want their presence in my life, and it is always difficult to maintain .


So I have don't have much more to say about this. I really miss, and will always remember Ollanta, and better said the people, like my home.


I'll leave you with my final speech script. Well, rather it is the script that I should have written before of my speech, but for lack of time I only spoke from my heart. Here I have exactly what I wanted to say.

Here are the lessons that I have learned over the last few (6?) years - remember, the most recent are at the bottom.


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Tomorrow I will leave this place that has become my home. They say "home is where the heart is," and I can easily amend this to say "home is where your family is." So tomorrow I will be leaving home, because you here I have chosen as my family. Blood family you cannot choose, but when I choose people to be "like family" to me I have one criteria: people that I want to have influencing me. People whose presence or personality or character offer an influence that I want to continue. Now, in this age of connection, I find it easier and easier to do so, so the decision is an important one, as it can truly affect your future actions. I have chosen family here: you here today. And while I know that contact can be maintained, this still feels like being uprooted and torn away. This still hurts, because I want to be here even knowing that I gave to be there. I hope that this feeling, the delightful feeling of family even as it brings pain, is shared by you here.


I believe that pain can be ameliorated, at least a little, by identifying how the parting party(ies) has influenced you already, or how their short time intersecting your life has changed it. If I may be so bold, today I want to be presumptuous and demanding. I want to define how I influence you from here on out. This is what I want to happen: You may miss me, you may think of me from time to time. When and if that happens, I want your mind to do something. I want it to move right along from me to two mantras. The first asks "what then must I do?" and begs us to decide on a course of action instead of merely recognizing a situation as problematic. It asks you to move, to shake the world as you find it. It begs you to start changes instead of accepting what is. The second is "what then have I to give?" and asks us to remember that all things are resources, tangible and intangible. As such, we can serve, and thus love, with literally everything that we have. Time, energy, voice, influence, money, etc, can all go to someone who us missing them. If we just seek opportunities to serve we will see countless.

I know that this is hard - you will never be perfect at it.  I certainly am not, but I think it is worth trying to be consistent.  Asking this if yourself is something worth dedicating your time to.


(at this point someone said "I will just ask myself 'what would Stewart do?'")


I responded: "I wouldn't quite do that, given I am not as good as I want to be." the fact is, I never will be: there are always ways to improve in live - ways to live more consistently, thoroughly, sacrificially. And to be honest, it is a wonderful thing to know that I can always get better at it. So perhaps choose a better role model - there are plenty. I simply ask you to start with these questions. When you think of me, allow your brain to drift immediately to them. Allow them to become your mantras. Allow them to rule what you do.


This is the influence I want to leave, if I may be so bold as to request how I will be remembered.


I love you all, in the fullest and most demanding sense if the word.


This then will be my goodbye. I'll see you soon, but until then, forget me and remember my questions.